The game is on

The sun starts to dim and the sky slowly changes to black, almost black. Small sparks of light starts to emerge, and there, caught by the human eye, a round shaped object that lights up the empty sky . Here i am,  at a place where i usually take place, on a silent Saturday night........ home. All alone.
It's not truly a desperation, it's just me confronting a new routine. Been doing it for quite some time, and getting used to it.
It's a good time to put some writings in this blog. But not an outfit post or other creative posts that i usually put up. It's more of a brief explanation of why, why i've been running away. Well it seems like i'm running away but contrarily, not.

Does this picture show enough? Does it explain enough?

If u are based in Indonesia, you might get what this 6 lettered word stand for and what it actually means. SNMPTN. Do i need to explain? do i..... well duh yes i do. So SNMPTN is a selection of potential students to enter universities in the country level with the National Pattern exam tests skills and write a special program for a specific study. But the one i'm entering is the SNMPTN Invitation. How is the selection? Well, the first consideration in the selection of the schools is the school's score to determine the quota. School score includes average value in SNMPTN of those schools alumni, the average of GPA cumulative  of the universities' students who come from those schools and school rankings that have been established by National Education Office in each region. After that, students' academic achievement becomes the second consideration with the reference value of report card of each semester. In some faculties, there are special rules related to the value of this report card. The easy word is, the judgement will be from the accreditation of the school (how good is the school) and also from the students' report card + certificates of our achievements.

Since there will be thousands of students through the nation who will be enlisted while there are only tens of seats available each faculty, this is not "just" some game. Say this, I've chose University Indonesia (Indonesia's top university) and majoring in Communication/PublicRelation. From last year's data, there are 3.365 students enlisted for this majoring, while the ones accepted are only 60. See what i mean? It's a big competition, a very tough one. It's a competition where there is no mercy, it's all about urself. 

Many people who knew me through this blog got a bit shocked. " Why didn't you take Fashion Design?"  They all had the same question. Well, my life is not all about fashion, and it doesn't have to be. I don't want to be the girl  who can only do 1 thing and stay forever there in her comfort zone. I want to explore. For me, education is truly important, but that won't stop me from doing other activities and projects that i'm passionate about. The majoring i'm taking itself is also something i'm interested in. I've made long and intensive thoughts before i actually made my final decision. I've also made plans and targets what i'll be doing in my first year of college, 2nd year, and so on. And i'm fully excited about it! So the thing is, although i didn't take Fashion as a majoring in college, i WILL still be doing whole lots of things that has to do with it. Instead, i will also be doing many other things that are not alike! Life is about wandering :) It's good to have many different experiences written down in my portfolio, so that's why, with all the time i still have, i will be collecting experiences :)

My mom told me that High School shouldn't always be about the fun, but also about focus. But i said how about if i can do them both! I still get the best time of my life here in High School but also focusing on my studies. And until now, i can proof that it's possible to have them both. I have all my wonderful friends with me and all the experience i've been thru with them all was just.... priceless. But at the same time i didn't set my studies aside, they were also a priority. I didn't want my high school to pass with no achievements because it will be the stupidest thing i'll ever do. So i never said no to opportunities. I've joined olympiads, competitions, organizations, working for an event and as head projects and all productive yet positive things.Those were all for the experience. And yes, i've learned soooo much from those all.

That didn't mean that it was a piece of cake doing best at balancing the fun side of high school and also for my academic and non academic achievements. I have ever been at my lowest point where i was desperate enough, but i rised and went on. My school's one of those schools with strict rules and the whole studying system went like crazy. But surprisingly i survived and yet done my best. 

So since this SNMPTN Invitation selection will be based on the student's academic and non academic achievements in high school, i've regret none. Alhamdulillah. But i can still feel the pressure i went through from the beginning until now. The hard work, the only-3 till 4-hours of sleep, the sweats, the tears, and everything. But all of this led me to no regrets. :)

My fight is still not over yet. I'm halfway done, but the hard ones are still waiting and not yet done. This will go on until Mei or June, i still can't predict. Since being accepted in University of Indonesia majoring in Communication/Public Relation is my main goal, i've to put my full focus on this. I can feel the pressure again, but it's more of a positive pressure. The pressure that'll lead me to something good only if i can face it constantly. I'm trying so hard to bring out my best with the available time left. Hopefully, these are truly all my best :) PLease wish me luck, ur prayers and supports will mean the world to me :)