back to....school and reality

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I'm back to my prisoner cell. Having 2 weeks of holiday feels like there was this angel who just fell from the sky and gave us temporary freedom. But the sad thing is, it's only temporary. So that means one day, i'll be back. And the day is today.
But hey, it's KINDDOF a good thing, i can't really stand it spending days at home for too long. i miss people! especially this extraordinary guy named ummm... Mr.T!:)
If u think that highschool is some of the best moments in your life where u spend most of ur time with friends,go to parties,getting home late,teenage romance,sneaking out of the house,late nights and funfunfun , u missed some things. Don't forget about the school assignments, crazy homeworks, getting up way too early, lotsandlots of exams,staying up late for that math test,weird teachers,unacceptable rules,school all day and homeworks all night, and being stressed out.I don't go looking for trouble. Trouble usually finds me. One thing i tell you, it's very very tiring! becos ur actually trying to complete all of those school works and trying to have fun at the same time. It'd be better if there were actually more than 24hours a day. let's be real, 24 hours is NOT ENOUGH. it just isn't :'( Is it that bad? hahaha no. just be smart, on managing ur time, although it's superduper hard! i mean , we're teenagers, we just wanna have fun but at the same time we have to accept reality that we still have a future, we still got many years to go, we have to think forward,think about our future. like trying to be one of the best, graduation ,college applications and wattawattawatta. But no matter how hard it is and how bad i wanna die every second just because of these "schoolthings", just enjoy it :D
There will always be light behind those dark frustrating moments.
There are nights which are actually the best nights where teachers are finally trying to be angels by not giving us any homework or for finally feeling peace realizing that there's not going to be any exam to face the next day.
Having many great supporting crazy humble friends who knows the true meaning of "fun" .
Owning the boy who owns a pure heart that i could rely on to keep my heart safely in his' who's always there to create a happy simple smile on my face after all of those dark days i've been through and someone i could spend hours with talking about the most pointless thing in a fun way with endless laughter.
The days where i finally can feel like a free happy full-spirit teenager: being in the middle of a big group of friends,breaking rules once in a while,late nights, getting home late,fall in love,knowing that i am loved,sleepovers,getting up late,taking pictures,holding hands,hugging someone and being hugged back,being told beautiful by someone,seeing people smile,getting unexpected gifts,listening to my favorite song,dance to the beat,flashback through old songs,eating lotsandlots of chocolate until my teeth hurts,having adventures,plan stupid things that could never happen,laugh too much 'till my stomach hurts badly,finding the perfect outfit in my closet,seeing blue clear perfect skies, and finally...do what i love the most :)
The thing is, i don't want to waste this moment. Because one day, i'll miss the moments where i suffer the most, the moments where i laugh all my guts out, happy memories , and endless friendship.
Keep reminding myself that if i don't go after what i want, i'll never get it. If i never step forward, i'll always be in the same spot

goodnight :)

6 feedbacks:

Unknown said...

GOOD LUCKKK!!!!!!
i'm in the middle of distress too! ;(
having bunch of works to do :( damn it

xx
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mutianugrabita said...

Keep struggling! Yes high school is hard especially science programm but we've to relaxing ourself :))

Mitha Komala said...

omg your title is scaring me as my school will be reopened in couple of days :((

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putri soe said...

Hectic, right? Wait till you see college! Good luck to you! And oh, i've replied your email :)
hope to see you tomorrow at Spot a Vendre!

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Claire Sun said...

The fun side of being young is mostly started by screwed a lot and messing around! Those moments are that one I missed (like damn much) as I grow older.
Take your time, pretty one!
You'd be just fine.
Goodluck for the school!
<3

ps: why are you always being so sweet when commenting my posts? you little darling! thankyou! :))

Kat said...

that stinks, i just had to go back to school too :( well good luck! :)

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